I could write about the forest, I could write about the
mountains and I could write about some desert somewhere far away. There is one
thing that is certain; I would write about you. I sit down and stare at my
screen, the blank page, and I try to think of some story about a traveling
salesman that got bitten by a vampire one long and lonely night, and this would
seem interesting. I would work up my plot twists and fake names to suit my
characters, this would also be nice. I would even talk about the salesman’s
pretty wife and three children; this would give the story depth.
Before my fingers would start tick tocking on the keys like
some crazy mixed up clock, I would know that you lurked there.
You are there in my fingertips with each letter that I
strike. You are there in my wrists as they grow tired from anchoring my hand
against the keyboard. You are there, always there and sooner or later, you will
be woven into my story whether I like it or not.
I have no idea why you are always there, in my mind, in my
fingertips. A part of me wants to flush you away and a part of me will never
let that image go. I have a picture painted on my mind of the way your eyes
were and the way you looked at me. I held nothing back from you and I could see
you there too, the uninhibited you. I remember that and I cannot make it go
away.
I think I will write of great waves on the ocean which
plummet onto the shore as the big moon shines above. A surfer rides in on the
midnight waves and crashes just before reaching shore. I watch him walk upon
the sand, his brown toes digging into the soft cushion of the beach, his brown
body glimmering in the moonlight. I sit on the shore and I watch him walk near
to me. I smile because he is a fine specimen of a young man. His hair is dark,
his eyes glimmer in the remaining light. As he sets his surfboard on the soft
sand, he gets onto all fours to climb toward me. I giggle just a little and
realize that I have taken you out of my story and it really worked this time. I
smile and coax the young man to crawl up to me. I see him get closer and
closer, ocean water drips from his dark locks.
“ It’s midnight, Cinderella.”
In moments, I feel the knot in my throat and the man
disappears. I can still see the ocean slapping the shore and its turbulence
pulls me back to reality. I hear the roar of the ocean as it grows louder. I
realize that it is only the train going down the track about a mile from my
house. The room is dark and I am still typing my story. I think it was the one
about the traveling salesman…or wait, maybe it was the one about the handsome
young surfer. I just know that you are there on the beach beside me and I have not
turned to look at you.
“You think I am crazy, don’t you?”
A tear seeps from the
corner of my eye and slides down my cheek. The pain is horrible and all I can
do is keep typing.
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